39 Weeks

I am officially due next Wednesday! If baby girl decides to be stubborn, we have scheduled an induction for November 3rd. Either way, she'll be here within the next two weeks!

Journaling

In the process of moving and unpacking, which I'll post about eventually, I came across all my old journals. I found one particular entry from November 2006 when I was deciding what I wanted to do the following summer. I wrote about how I was struggling to make a decision about interning in D.C. and how I wished someone could just make the decision for me.

I wrote, "I have a lot of options. It's definitely better than no options. But still, for every option I have to make a choice - decide yes or no. What happens if I make the wrong decision? What are the consequences of what I choose, or choose not, to do? Will where I intern this summer have any effect on what happens when I graduate? Or does this summer really not make a significant difference?"

Wow. I had completely forgotten how much I struggled with the decision to intern in D.C. and how much I struggled with where I would live once I got there, if I did at all. I can't even begin to imagine what my life would be like had I not made the decision to go. Nothing in my life would be the same. There would have been no opportunity to meet Russel. I wouldn't be married to him or living in northern Virginia and I wouldn't be getting ready to have a baby. It was such a pivotal decision and, of course, at the time I had no way of knowing. I am so grateful for the reminder of those events and the reminder that we can be led in our decisions through prayer and personal revelation. I have no doubt I made the right decision and that gives me such confidence as I go forward in my life, knowing that with the help of the Holy Ghost I can make correct decisions for me and my family.